This is what my hands looked like tonight after the workout. What the hell am I doing? Today was really busy for me, but I went out of my way to go to CrossFit after dinner. I could have just taken a rest day. But I didn't want to miss it. This was my workout:
30 pull-ups
15 deadlifts with 135 lbs.
400m run
30 push-ups
15 push jerks of 75 lbs.
30 air squats
15 front squats with 45 lbs.
400m run
15 deadlifts with 135 lbs.
30 pull-ups
I actually finished the whole thing, although it took me 26 minutes. At the end I was shaking, trying to hold down vomit, and crying (just a little bit.) This is insanity right? Why am I doing this shit to myself? The most insane part? I thought it was great! People were cheering me on and talking me through the roughest spots. There was even a moment when Kelsi made me laugh in the middle of the epic suffering. What is going on here?
I'm not being facetious. I really want to understand this phenomenon. I'm punishing my body in ways I've never even thought possible. Yet, I'm enjoying it and signing up for more. Is this good for me? Is this just a new way to punish myself, but now physically instead of emotionally? I don't know. But I have this niggling feeling in the back of my brain that sane people don't act this way.
I was thinking about this recently. I think every crossfit athlete has a certain amount of masochism in them. Some more than others.
ReplyDeleteWhile I've never wept during a workout, I certainly get some nausea now and then, especially on workouts like this that are just non-stop exertion. As tough as everything is while I'm doing it, though, it feels so much better once I'm done and home sitting on my couch.
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